Nothing, but Eyes.

She stared with eyes of stone,
her gaze pierced me through,
I didn't even know, why so?
I just assumed, it was nothing.

But the eyes followed me,
wherever I went, they seemed to be,
I ducked, I covered myself,
but I couldn't escape, I was caught,
but then again, it was nothing, I thought.

Silent she was, never said a word,
or maybe I never bothered, never heard,
even her quiescence seemed to talk,
obstruct me in my blithed walk,
but like my usual self I thought, she was nothing.

Misty and yet so very clear,
her eyes seemed so full of fear,
of what was to come, what was to happen,
to me or to her, of how time was misshapen.
She stared at me long and hard,
her eyes watered, glistening every shard,
of her broken soul and tattered heart,
I was watching her, as she broke apart.
It was all in the eyes, I didn't have to go deeper,
they were holding so much back, those secret keepers.

I never saw her again waiting in the rain,
standing under a broken shed and shivering,
turning her head around again and again,
just to check whether I was around the bend,
looking so aloof, carefree she was, she'd pretend.
The sidewalk was empty, the shadowy figure gone,
She was no more, she was gone, had become foregone.

I can't get those eyes out of my head,
although it has been a decade since she's dead,
they still follow me wherever my feet carry me,
through every happiness and sorrow, they see,
So used to their presence I am now,
how would I live without them, just how?
I miss how I felt that there was nothing,
but now I know there was always something,
and that something was meant to be everything,
and now I want her back like anything,
but in the end I know, I'm left with nothing.
Just those two eyes, staring at me so helplessly,
asking me, questioning me, smiling at me,
tossing me around in whirlpools of craze,
the memories of those eyes just fail to erase.

"Take Care"

The two words didn't mean much to me,
until you said them so lovingly,
that the words sprout wings and lifted me high,
they made me want to dance and reach for the sky.

It wasn't that I didn't care enough before,
it was just your saying that made me wanna do more,
I started using rouge, I stared into the mirror,
Everything was beauty, everything so much clearer.

I dipped myself in wells of rose water,
all of a sudden I seemed to matter,
I used kohl for the first time in life,
I danced to the tunes of the forbidden fife.

My eyes started twinkling, dreams came to and fro,
I was in a land of fairies, magic and galore.
I didn't want to sleep a wink last night,
because the reality was so beautiful, so bright.

My smiles knew no bounds and my tears were all dried,
the joys started dancing, all my sorrows suddenly died,
just because of those two words that you uttered once,
the utterance of which became one, big, mighty bunce.

I hate you.

I hate you, so much,
I don't know how much,
but the hatred's such,
that I feel like breaking apart,
in the hatred that dwells in my heart,
I pray for your smiles,
I try to tame the distance in miles,
but I still hate you, for you make me feel,
so weak, so lost, so petty and so unreal.
I hate you, yes, I hate you, I repeat,
here I'm left, so broken, so incomplete.
You sleep peacefully while I'm up at night,
thinking over what was wrong and what was right?
While you adorn your world with roses of love,
I'm here dealing with thorns and cruel shoves.
I want to wave a final good bye to you,
but I know I won't be able to, because I hate you.
I hate you, I swear, I really, really do,
I just don't know how to let go of you.
The feeling grows, expands, and takes over,
you're no longer my lucky charm, an Irish clover,
you're a poison, filling up my veins,
you're the cause of all my aches and pains.
Please leave, get out of my life, you're a tumor,
you deprive me of strength, solace and humor.
You know the art of killing so well,
you make me want to die than dwell.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.
I hate so much that the feeling will grow,
into a helpless case of love so deep,
that it will become so hard for me to keep,
the feelings buried, out they will eventually seep.
Trust me, I hate you with a passion so strong,
I have no idea about how I have hated you so long.
But I hate you, keep this in your mind,
in your heart and please be kind,
and get out of my life.
Because I hate you, I hate you, & I hate you.

In Love with a Serpent

i'm in love with a serpent,
he forms a noose around me,
as precious as a gold pendant,
he makes me love so deeply.

when i plunge into marshes of sadness,
he's there to pull me out,
my heart fills with gladness,
i trust him without doubt.

when he stings at my heart,
i don't mind the scar,
when he hisses at me,
my eyes glow like a star.

when the scales pass over my skin,
they burn me till deep within,
when the fangs bury deep,
through my blood the poison seeps.

when he tightens around my neck,
i cry tears devoid of regret,
as my skin turns a blue,
death is near i knew.

i knew, when our eyes met,
there was nothing i'd get,
since he was the serpent,
i was just prey,
flesh left and no breath remained,
my body had just then turned gray.

Rest in peace read my grave,
I was someone my love failed to save.

Better forgotten.

A very touching song by Noor Jehan, which I really felt like translating. Even though I'm sure I haven't done justice to the original Urdu lyrics, I wanted to share my lame attempt.

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

I will convince myself,
that my foolish eyes were,
seeing meaningless dreams,
of me and thyself.
I lost you, everything too,
Only in my wildest dreams,
was everything mine.

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

My heart's full of embers,
where'd flowers blossom?
We were always two sides of a river,
How'd we ever together come?

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

Let Go.

Today I have decided to finally let go.

My palms face upward, my fingers apart,

I'm going to let you go,

even if it breaks my heart.

Each step you take,

I feel it on my chest,

You're taking with you my everything,

leaving me to a quest.

When you glance at me one last time,

my lashes quiver to contain the flood,

When you let out a long sigh,

The coolness freezes my blood.

As the dust rises around your feet,

I'm left to stare at the ground,

feeling like the helpless earth beneath,

My heart forgets to pound.

As I stare at the back of your head,

Your neck so stiff, held up high,

I bow my head in shame,

I can't even look up at the sky.

When I raise my lids,

I want you to turn,

I want to see your face once more,

my hurt and mind churns.

My eyes keep wandering,

Now, now, I know, you'll look,

I keep telling myself,

but it's hard to regain whatever you took.

My eyes keep following,

searching for you through trees,

But alas,you're gone,

like silk without a crease.

Now that I've let you go,

I want to free everything,

A clear crystal shines somewhere,

forcing me to think.

A little bit of pain,

goes a very long, long way,

So I decide to cut myself deeper,

and live this as my last day.

When I see red, I smile,

that's the color of your heart,

I feel cold and then warm,

Now I feel you and I are on the same path.

Only directions are different,

No worries about that,

I ascend and you descend,

That's all to be exact.

So today I decided to let go of you,

of the pain I gave you,

of the tears that streamed down my cheeks,

of the days when we skipped through meadows,

of the times we spent catching butterflies,

of the dreams we saw together,

of the clouds that rained upon us,

of this life, which was so meaningless without you.