This is for Eraj. :)

We walk upon so many hearts,

we trample so many trusts apart,
seldom so we stop to realize,
that someone under our feet dies.

We rant, we whine, we complain,
about life, about people, about pain,
But do we ever try to honestly feel,
what's it like when scars slowly peel?

We are all stuck in black holes of time,
where just our feelings and pains are prime.
We turn blind to the fiery fires around us,
burning so many, while we're busy clueless.

We fail to understand the battles others fight,
we're too busy proving that we're the only ones right.
We're so busy proving our scars are bigger,
while others die under so much agony and rigor.

We read emails, go through text messages, try to guess
trying to deciper why those people walked out on us.
But do we ever stop to think,they were probably never meant to be?
Maybe they were mere illusions, nothing more than images in the sea?

We pick on our scars, shedding tears of distress,
we do it to ourselves, it's a fatal quality we all possess.
In hopes that our tears will extinguish flame of anguish,
we end up setting our lives on fire, letting life diminish.

We all want to reach out so bad, but our egos hold us back,
we need to cut open those constraints and admit what we lack.
For every person in our lives who leaves us alone,
God makes sure another walks with us all along.

We spend too much of our lives staring at closed doors,
it becomes impossible to find possible cures,
to end this misery which we usually self-opt,
to change and grow and to new conditions adopt.

Good byes are just another chance to grow,
independently, to walk on two legs and take life slow.
Farewells maybe be major causes of heart ache,
but if you look closely, they are ways to partake.

Trust me, it's time to step out of those lacunae,
to spread colors of love, obliterate all the gray,
to live once more and rejoice every crevice of this life,
to fill the morbid silence with melodies of fife.

Don't ever feel that you were wrong to love or to care,
since those who matter will always be there,
to carry you around when you feel you've stalled,
to be your guardian angels or your protective wall.

Just hang on to the golden string of belief,
through episodes of happiness and even grief,
you will resurface one day with so much grace,
that the glow of love with radiate from your face.



SMILE ERAJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ! :)

*hugs*

Better forgotten.

A very touching song by Noor Jehan, which I really felt like translating. Even though I'm sure I haven't done justice to the original Urdu lyrics, I wanted to share my lame attempt.

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

I will convince myself,
that my foolish eyes were,
seeing meaningless dreams,
of me and thyself.
I lost you, everything too,
Only in my wildest dreams,
was everything mine.

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

My heart's full of embers,
where'd flowers blossom?
We were always two sides of a river,
How'd we ever together come?

I'm glad that you forgot,
the love I had for you.
It was a mistake,
better forgotten, then begot.

Let Go.

Today I have decided to finally let go.

My palms face upward, my fingers apart,

I'm going to let you go,

even if it breaks my heart.

Each step you take,

I feel it on my chest,

You're taking with you my everything,

leaving me to a quest.

When you glance at me one last time,

my lashes quiver to contain the flood,

When you let out a long sigh,

The coolness freezes my blood.

As the dust rises around your feet,

I'm left to stare at the ground,

feeling like the helpless earth beneath,

My heart forgets to pound.

As I stare at the back of your head,

Your neck so stiff, held up high,

I bow my head in shame,

I can't even look up at the sky.

When I raise my lids,

I want you to turn,

I want to see your face once more,

my hurt and mind churns.

My eyes keep wandering,

Now, now, I know, you'll look,

I keep telling myself,

but it's hard to regain whatever you took.

My eyes keep following,

searching for you through trees,

But alas,you're gone,

like silk without a crease.

Now that I've let you go,

I want to free everything,

A clear crystal shines somewhere,

forcing me to think.

A little bit of pain,

goes a very long, long way,

So I decide to cut myself deeper,

and live this as my last day.

When I see red, I smile,

that's the color of your heart,

I feel cold and then warm,

Now I feel you and I are on the same path.

Only directions are different,

No worries about that,

I ascend and you descend,

That's all to be exact.

So today I decided to let go of you,

of the pain I gave you,

of the tears that streamed down my cheeks,

of the days when we skipped through meadows,

of the times we spent catching butterflies,

of the dreams we saw together,

of the clouds that rained upon us,

of this life, which was so meaningless without you.